I know your trying to create convo, but if you have to ask the question and you don't see it by watching him or listening to what he says, it's pretty self explanatory. To keep to the tone of the topic and History. I come here and I have an increasing longing for my teenage years and the years from the time I discovered this place, dated one of the members here and moved to California.
I just miss all of it, and the feelings I still remember. Coming here was so awesome to me and I was so fucking angry I couldn't prove I was a separate person and the fact I was being truthful didn't help me created an anger in me that caused me to do some things I did and said out of anger. Here I was feeling like I was being robbed of one of my joys on a misunderstanding and I had no way as an teenager to express how hurt I felt because of it so I lashed out. You guys took my forum virginity. I wanted to so bad be among you as my peers and friends. The fact I got two of my best friends offline to come here made it mean even more. It was like, I don't know even as an thirty-four year old man how to explain it. I know I have no one to blame but me. If I could do it all again and change the outcome. I would not hesitate. I was 15 when I came here. A year from now I would have first came to these forums 15 years ago. I remember it all but not all of the details, the citadel parties on AIM. I even remember my aim sn. Climhazard9.
Without the citadel, I would not be who I am. I don't think I would have been fearless about moving to California. It was because of this place that its impact on my life and some of my experiences that this place in my memories, my heart, my reminiscence of the past has to include here. You don't realize sometimes how much you impact likely someone's life besides the impact in internet history you have speaks volumes. If I ever have children, I hope they get the chance to experience this. And, I can guide them through the pitfalls to maintain friendships and bonds no matter the distance your mind and heart can lead you wherever you want.
we now need to do an 20th anniversary theme like we did for the 10 year one. I wanna submit something for march. we do we talk to?
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